christy

Friday, December 16, 2005

i know, i will(ALWAYS)eventually know.

so long a once good company.
you might be reading/spying on this.
but hey, seriously, i have no qualms on it.
maybe. just so maybe, it's thanks to my rather clear conscience.

so good luck, my friend.
good luck with getting your path right.
yes, i called u a friend.
there's no point in hating/loathing you.
though it's very nice to vent my issues and curse it off on you.

perhaps what i was told isn't true as well.
at the end of the day, i will never ever know.
i doubt i should bother knowing anyway.
it seems like wasted time spent on satisfying my curiousity.

and so it is.

i hope u get your headcheck.
i feel sad and sympathise you badly.
but.
thank Lord, you didn't harm me
or jepordise me in any worse-er way.

so please, stay out of my way.
cos seriously. this may be sounding horrendously bitchy.
but, i'm so outta your league.
thank your stars for being able to, perhaps, gloat on it.

>>note to self: Learn to be MAGNANIMOUS.

so i know seenkapur doesn't partake in ThanksGiving.
but i think it's a good thing.

so here's my version.

- i'm thankful for being able to learn. though hard but i learn.
- i'm damnnnn thankful for people around me. good or bad.
- i'm thankful for where i am right now.

which brings me o realise something over the past few days.

this journey i'm taking, is a long, painful and exhausting.
what i'm doing, is thankfully, for my personal attainment.
personal hedonistic pleasurism.
i'm glad i'm in it. and but of cos, it's super love/hate.

but i think, alomost believing.
that it's meant to be a lonesome journey.
especially up there.
i notice that somehow, it is always lonely when you're 'up-there'.
no matter how nice it looks,
it's all a mere facade.

sometimes, it's good to be simple.
like bus-driver.
nice, routinal.

but so mundane!!!!!

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