Monday, July 05, 2004
this sem has started out with a kick-ass orientation. however, the actual commencement of it all seemed to have been alot more on the opposite end. think tumble-dumble. everyone's exhausted and weary, thirsty for something, un-energised, frail, un-motivated. i can't quite put a finger down at what really is the cause. not even could be to begin with!
or is it just my ever-so-lousy observation skills? it's just some vibes that i'm getting from my pals. how worrying.
whatever that maybe, i hope we'll all pull through this well. ok, maybe it's a little early to speak about the "well" part. just pull through it first. i forsee a tough semester. a leap into topics/subjects/arenas much more in-depth. and all that's really taxing. i don't know about others [be it my course or not], but i'm scared that i'll lose steam or get frail and brittle. the odds aren't too good, i saye.
with alot going on at home and everywhere possible for my existance and anything else with regards to the bane of my existance, it's hard to find solace. i realised that though these stuff that are gradually evolving are positive things, they can result in negative experiences. so, i treasure each tick of the watch that allow some moments of solace or serenity. just a break off from everything for a moment. to somewhat get a grasp of what the heck is going on perhaps? it's tough, and it ain't gonna get easier. "getting accustomed to" time is zero.
i have to learn to be strong and bold in all these adversities. should i toughen it all out? or should i remain happy and do all within my strength? i like being happy.. but will this "happy for now" cause unhappiness later? how ironic.
i think the best wish i could make now is for everything to be simplified. even algebra sums had formulas for simplification. can i have one for this life-gebra? just one.
christy the great.
i like nonsense
i love tangle
